Cuti yang giler-giler

Tetibe teringat cuti ari tu. It was really an escapism...from tons of workload and problems. Best sungguh2 kat Cameron, dpt rehat secukupnye and always happy with lots of time spent watching Korean series. We ate a lot, though...mmg susah nk control, kudapan pun non stop. OMG...dh le round....makin roind jadinye. But we can't stop eating.
I guess it was not just the place...companion pun main peranan penting. Dr dulu pun i feel comfortable pegi holiday with my sis...we're not calculative, we can get along fine. Satu lagi keserasian ni bkn tjadi in the blink of an eye...or dipaksa2...or dibuat2. It's genuine..orang kate mcm dah ade chemistry. We don't have to pretend, we don't have to try bermati-matian to please one another. It comes from the heart!
Dahle...nanti ade pulak yg bengang. Btw, "Thank You Sis"

2011...the reality

Dah Feb ni...what did i achieve so far? In terms of career, well, it's neither up nor down. The good news is..I STILL SURVIVE!!!. (Though byk dugaan kena face, school work yg x pernah end, the high expectation from the leader, students yg pelbagai kerenah and so on, and so on.)
My life as a normal human being??? Sucks!! I still have lots of expectations tapi byk yg x menjadi...honestly!! Sedih kan!! Rase mcm terbuang je...not really accepted by the community. Maybe because i'm not that ambitious..or maybe i'm not the tripod type. Susah jugak kl jenis mcm aku ni....If only i could learn from the expert!! Need to go, mountains of exercise books to be marked, plus the other stuff to attend to. Jumpe lagi

Dugaan tahun 2010

Ari ni nk tulis dlm BM lak. Semalam cakap pasal expectations. Today pun ade kena-mengena ngan expectations....yg menjadi n yg x. Yg diharap: 1)dpt mcm dl ngan siblings 2)anak2 berjaya 3)x tambah hutang 4)happy selalu. Results: 1) makin jauh (at least not all) 2)so-so (bkn le failure lak) 3)ade kemusykilan sikit 4)lately very sad and disappointed.
Nk elaborate ttg yg no 4...aku rase aku ni jenis yg tak suka kacau orang. Kl aku tak suka, aku cuba avoid....yg aku tak faham kenapa org kate aku menyibuk dlm hal orang. Aku sarankan kalau ada orang nk kate aku suka menyibuk tentang dia, please ask yourself, "are you worth it???"
Ya Allah, masalah KUCING aku lebih penting untuk difikirkan. Ini yang buat aku tak happy...
Satu lagi...aku rasa sad sgt bila 'I don't belong' punya perasaan datang dlm kepala...tak capai piawaian ke aku ni  utk diterima
Guess birthday nnt mesti ada resolution baru - be strong, be happy n buy your own ice cream cake!!!!!
Adios.....

Expectations.....again???

2010 - more disappointment than joy, i should say. By right, when u're getting older, u should be wiser!! WRONG!! U'll be super duper sensitive, pain in the *@**##. And i hate it...
In my case, it actually has nothing to do with age....I'm me, regardless of my age.
So, the topic?? Oh yeah..expectations..i'd lots of expectations this year, which is sad to say mostly did not turn out well (not all anyway..).
The greatest expectation was to have my heart mended ....due to some misunderstanding!! But i guess it would never happen...the hole is getting wider....
                                                                                                                      ......to be continued

haru biru

Pelik btol, bila i wrote s/thing kat status, ramai yg terasa!! Dah ckp i don't point to anybody tapi ade jugak yg x pecaya.  Nak ckp ape lagi haa?? Haru biru jadinye. Sorry laa, that line was meant for noone...noone specific. It's the normal happening!! So, nk mntk maafle kl ade yg terase