Dugaan tahun 2010

Ari ni nk tulis dlm BM lak. Semalam cakap pasal expectations. Today pun ade kena-mengena ngan expectations....yg menjadi n yg x. Yg diharap: 1)dpt mcm dl ngan siblings 2)anak2 berjaya 3)x tambah hutang 4)happy selalu. Results: 1) makin jauh (at least not all) 2)so-so (bkn le failure lak) 3)ade kemusykilan sikit 4)lately very sad and disappointed.
Nk elaborate ttg yg no 4...aku rase aku ni jenis yg tak suka kacau orang. Kl aku tak suka, aku cuba avoid....yg aku tak faham kenapa org kate aku menyibuk dlm hal orang. Aku sarankan kalau ada orang nk kate aku suka menyibuk tentang dia, please ask yourself, "are you worth it???"
Ya Allah, masalah KUCING aku lebih penting untuk difikirkan. Ini yang buat aku tak happy...
Satu lagi...aku rasa sad sgt bila 'I don't belong' punya perasaan datang dlm kepala...tak capai piawaian ke aku ni  utk diterima
Guess birthday nnt mesti ada resolution baru - be strong, be happy n buy your own ice cream cake!!!!!
Adios.....

Expectations.....again???

2010 - more disappointment than joy, i should say. By right, when u're getting older, u should be wiser!! WRONG!! U'll be super duper sensitive, pain in the *@**##. And i hate it...
In my case, it actually has nothing to do with age....I'm me, regardless of my age.
So, the topic?? Oh yeah..expectations..i'd lots of expectations this year, which is sad to say mostly did not turn out well (not all anyway..).
The greatest expectation was to have my heart mended ....due to some misunderstanding!! But i guess it would never happen...the hole is getting wider....
                                                                                                                      ......to be continued

haru biru

Pelik btol, bila i wrote s/thing kat status, ramai yg terasa!! Dah ckp i don't point to anybody tapi ade jugak yg x pecaya.  Nak ckp ape lagi haa?? Haru biru jadinye. Sorry laa, that line was meant for noone...noone specific. It's the normal happening!! So, nk mntk maafle kl ade yg terase